Lost In The World

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted on my blog, I know. I’ll be honest to those of you who keep asking me to update it. I have had the time but I haven’t had the inclination to write something new. I’ve been feeling pretty miserable recently and fed up and hating on life and just about any form of self deprecating sadness you can think of.

Unfortunately only time heals these sorts of things and it looks like I’ve got a lot of waiting to do. In the meantime, maybe I can try to bring some life back to my blog and let anyone else out there know that you’re not alone.

I remember being 18 and all ready to go off to Uni, thinking that I was an adult about to conquer that cool thing called independence. Turns out I sorta failed at that and decided life at home was more cushy. I’m joking! The more confident me would say I experienced that way of life but made a change so I was happier and on a different path to where I wanted to be. Except the future is looking a bit unclear at the moment.

At one point, I thought I had everything worked out. I was ambitious, confident and believed I could get exactly what I wanted. Then life went a bit downhill and with it my confidence. Sometimes I have little bouts of yeah I can do this! This normally involves reading Hannah Gale’s blog who is so refreshingly honest and relatable or keeping myself busy doing things I enjoy. For example, spending £40 on clothes that I’ll probably never get to wear because of the unpredictable British weather…

I’ve been desperately trying to stay positive and put on a brave face. It’s exhausting. Does that sound a bit too dramatic? Probably. I did, however, get back into Zumba this week and that made me feel really good. Oh and the really sunny weather today helped. Here’s to keeping up the exercise and more warm weather. I wonder how long that will last.

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