It occurred to me the other day that I should be really proud of where I am in life right now. 18 year old me would have been dancing round the room and thanking her lucky stars that she got to work the 9-5 job instead of study, that she had a boyfriend who loved her and a good, solid group of friends.
In reality, I find that I just keep wanting more. Not content with hitting one milestone, I want to be pushed even further in life. I want to feel even more challenged by my job and I want to move out with my boyfriend. These thoughts have to stop. It’s okay to have aspirations but I know I just have to start living in the moment more.
The natural way to remedy this is to reflect on how far I’ve come. I won’t list that all here though as those blog posts aren’t really my style anymore. Do we ever stop to really reflect on our achievements before focusing on something else? I spent ages thinking I’d never get a job I enjoy and now that I have one, all I can think about is pushing myself further to be better at my job. For some reason I can’t just be content with what I’ve got.
I’m always looking to the future. It’s scary but I’ve almost planned out how I’d like my future to look. Obviously, I know not everything works out the way you intend but I sometimes, (actually always) feel like I’m racing through life to hit the next milestone and get where I want in life. I tell myself if I just get through this next week or these next few months then I’m ever closer to that goal.
I’m sure I’m not the only one who does this. The girl who wishes her life away thinking about what could be instead of focusing on what’s right in front of her. It’s okay to have big dreams but unless I make the most of the present, the future won’t look anything like I imagine. It’s the memories we make now that shape the future. (Cheese alert).
I just want to assure, I’m in no way ungrateful for what I’ve got in life because I’m very lucky and have had many opportunities come my way. Living in the moment is what we should all be trying to do though. Be happy with where you are now. Celebrate the small successes and don’t be so hard on yourself. (I definitely didn’t just sing that). Channel that inner Jess Glynne.
Opportunities crop up in their own good time. Sometimes you have to make them happen but sometimes it’s a matter of waiting. For as long as I can remember, I always wondered when my life was really going to take off. Numerous entries I’ve read back on in my diary have spoken about how eager I am to start my own life and become an adult. Now I am an adult but things don’t feel quite as exciting as my eager 16 year old self imagined. I guess I didn’t factor in that the lives I was comparing mine to were that of a 30 -40 year old. People who had careers, were homeowners, married and had kids.
That still seems a world away and I’m almost frustrated that times have changed. Less people are getting married now more than ever and less couples are starting families or owning homes. It’s an ever changing world where it seems there is no stability. I’m lucky that I’m in a position where I may be able to move out in the next few years but so many people aren’t.
Pulling this back to the point of the post before I go off on a tangent, I just want to sum up. My aim is to try to enjoy every day as much as possible and try to gain something from it; whether that be an interesting conversation or personal success. Life seems to be flying by (how is it October already?!) so we only have to make the most of what we’ve got.